Sunday, January 11, 2009
I cannot lose myself.
Hey guys. Just talk to me if u see this message. In need of comfort. HA.
Anyway, its been awhile. I've recently learnt loads of stuff. Painfully truthful stuffs.
I miss those days. I'm actually quite stuck you see. Dumbest ever! weeee~ How? I think Im going to have a split personality. LOL~!
These past week, I had spent sooooooooo much money and tears. Know more people. Got back my friends. Lost 1 person. I'm still trying. In fact, I realised 1 thing: In the end, you are really alone. Ur family will never leave you if possible but all else do. It sucks to see things change when you dont want it to. It really hurts to be left out cuz of it.
Everyone should really treasure. Treasure the one you love. Stop for a moment and think about how you have taken anyone for granted esp the one you don't wanna lose. Stop whinning and complaining. I did. I'm sorry. I know I wore u off.
I kept thinking that maybe I should let u off. Ive learnt my lesson though but I guess its too late... Your feeling is like.... that lo. If u were to come back then we are meant to be? I cant bare to say it. really. it sucks. SUCKS!
Have to be GAY like what Ai Wei said. :) I think i should have a walk by myself 1 day. Havent tried that before and i think i want too. Ive fallen quite deep. Its really hard to get up.
I miss your beautiful smile ... 11:29 PM